Right now i feel emotion – less, apathetic even. I feel, well i dont feel, thats what the situation is!
Right now less and less seems to stimulate me emotionally. This is because i have made the active choice to live in the now, meaning i think less….it means my body and mind obviously do not conjour up emotions. This is what i have strived for, for a while… the ability to be inside my body and outside my mind, the Eckhart Tolle way. The bad side of this which Eckhart may not tell you about is that because you use the procedures you use to get rid of thinking… it means that because there is absence of negative emotions there is also absence of positive. Weird ay!
Anyway….my life has been pretty cool lately. Easter was amazing, i had one of the best nights of my life!! I also was doing something last week i dont regularly do. I have a belief….the more hours you are awake…the more you can do to change your life. Simple…So what i did some nights last week was…when i would get in from a night out at 4am, i would stay awake and not go to sleep. I got so much work done it was a joke!! Genius idea by me wehey. Plus i actually got to sleep relatively early the next night which meant i returned to a good sleeping pattern. Its good to sometimes stay awake for over 24 hours. Helps realign your whole body.
Alot of ideas have been going through my head lately too…..One was brought on by my night last night. I went to go see a singer i listen to called Joshua Radin. Literally amazing i love him! The guitarist was actually amazing too, he was so into the music i love seeing that. I noticed as well that he was well…overweight. Not madly fat but by no means had a good body. And it got me thinking, he is a master at jammin on the guitar but not of his appearance. It struck a thought that…we often can master certain areas but fall off in others. You may often see computer geeks who can design entire websites using just html code but cant have a normal conversation with the cashier lady at the super market. Or fire fighters and army lieutenants who can go and face the most dangerous situations….but cant approach girl. It makes you think….what is actually better to have….Mastery of 1 or Mediocre of All? After having just a little think…i believe its better to Master 1. But the one thing they master should effect every area of their lives. Like mastering yourself, knowing everything about who you are and how to change it, being conscious of what you do, things like that. Or….dare i say it…Master the ability to make money. Not alot…but enough so that you do not have to worry too much about it.
Another thought i have been thinking about is about survival instincts, qualities and mentalities. Recently someone who is an extremely close family friend and i lived next to for basically my whole life did something really shocking. I wont into it but discovering it got me thinking and…..my comment on my facebook status describes my thought best :
“When i see a begger i see low survival instincts, when i see a criminal i see high. We often misinterpret criminal acts as negative, only because they are bound by a law. When on the flipside we can learn so much from people who lie, cheat and steal.”
I truly believe that we all hold genuine survival abilities, its just we do not tap into them enough. If we had the ability to tap into our highest survival instincts then we could be healthy, thin, wealthy millionaires because we would constantly make sure that everything we was doing was to the utmost highest level because we had a strong fear of ever not surviving. We would stay away from high fructose syrup, gambling and cliffs.
Anyway just wanted to update everyone with my brain 
Its a mad old world out there. Stay safe kids.
Big love, big hug.
Sam Ben-David
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I would argue that being overweight is not a bad thing per se – but in terms of general health and alertness it is a good idea to regulate your blood sugar (by eating more healthily) and taking effective exercise. The trade off is that I am losing weight and developing toned muscles, which is really cool, but not the primary reason why I started doing it. I know some girls who are keen dancers/into endurance cycling/etc, and need lots of energy, so they eat well and healthily. The perk for them and me is that they have sexy bodies too
– but that’s not the only reason why they do it.
And I know quite a few tubby guys who do very well with the ladies
I’d also argue there’s never enough time to master everything. I am happy that I’ll probably never be a great footballer, or a chess master. But I think developed people skills and good health are important for everyone.